Oops got scolding from rio already.. Waaah very long i nv update.. hmm wad was i thinking.
In fact i dunno whr to start bt i will just go with my sat outing ok!!
The usual Sat. So i woke up a lil late cos i didn wan to be too early so i delayed a bit and took a bathe and left home. Before leaving my boy msged me and asked if i was coming over. I tot we will be home rotting so i decided to bring my lappy over and jus wore my normal Man U tee. Thank goodness my dad was there. So i asked him to send me to habourfront and den i took another cab down to YT cres. Happily went up.
Saw my boy having his breakfast, thosai!!! After that Aziz the young one told me we were goin to watch alvin n the chipmunks. I tried to help arnd the hse and showed my boy the completed flim i did for him which he saw part of it! -.-
Watched a bit of tv, walked arnd the hse aimlessly n then helped with the cooking. Den Banz came and den aft a while we left to Raffles to eat lunch bt the shop was closed! Walked back to the mosque, prayed and travelled to Marina and went to the place whr i usually go.. the food court. :P

After eating, we decided to go for the movie.. bt then i saw banz like not in the mood.

She was soo quiet. So i decided to start a convo with her bt she just didn wan to.. Mum also realized that she was awfully quiet so she signalled to me to be away from my boy and entertain banz. Not cos she asked me to do that, I really wanted banz to feel comfortable.. Thats wad i always do. Usually, mum asks me to do it, and i just get a sour face frm banz or Bboy. I had a hard time.
The thing is i wan to make both my boy n banz happy. But when im with either one,the other not happy!! what am i to do? I tried to tok to her, held her hands and all bt she didnt look at me. She just asked me to be with my boy. I wasnt asking much ok.. i just didnt wan her to feel sad when everyone wad laughing away. I was soo upset that i walked away feeling damn hurt. I already had tears and pain in my heart. My boy saw me and asked me why i was sad. I told him it was nth. He still presisted den i cldn take it and i started crying and told him. I just hate tt feeling..

*Whenever im over at his place, my boy suddenly disappear to his com. And i will be either left in the hall alone or with aziz.. Banz will be in her room and once in a while comes out. Soo as to entertain myself i will enter her room and tok to her.. This always happens.. then when my boy is bored he will go into his room. Since we are just couples, i cnt possibly enter his room u see. I dun wan to be in a bad light.
It always happen. When im watchin tv with everyone, my boy goes to his parents room n slp and leaving me thr. Haiz..
Den one time, he told me if i was his gf or his sis. He said, it seemed i spend more time with her than him. bt the fact is im trying to juggle the time i spend with both of them. I love my boy alot. And of cos i wanna give priority to him.. and i also wanna spend time with his sister as well.. Come on la, i knw hw it feels when someone's loved ones is nt arnd. Im a girl for god's sake.. Im soo just fking lost. And i hate this feeling!

Whenever my boy and his family are out, with me arnd, i hang arnd banz and once in a while he pops his head inside and kpo abt wad we are toking abt.. then he will go, happily entertain aziz and he doesnt like it if i get too close with him whenever his parents are arnd.. thats y i always keep a distant.. **

DAMN it i hate this feeling soo darn much. Im not asking for much. I miss my boy alot cos he will be in camp i the only damn day i get to see him is on Sat. I wanna be with him at least!!! But not too close like hugging and kissing him in frnt of parents.. :P I knw my limits when im out with the PARENTS!! They are like our crocodiles, keeping a constant look out for wad we are doing and den getting redi to pounce at us when we do something wrongly. This issue happens almost most of the time..so ya im damn used to it already but yeah tt day was too much for me to take..*

After that mini drama we went to watch a movie.. followed banz to get the tidbits and i still felt a lil sad inside..i didnt show it out bt ya banz was all cool abt it.. She cant be angry for long and tts the good thing abt her. She will be pissed a while and then she will be ok..so aft the movie, we headed back home. Send lala home den me.. had fun and a bit of drama here and thr bt yeah the day was cool.. Looking forward to another Sat!!! Weeeeeeee!!

Im a very soft hearted person and i tend to get hurt easily.. I knw its very sissy of me and all. I knw sometimes ppl bully me. Just for the fun of it. Dun wan to be known as a cry baby, so i put up a strong fake front.. There are ppl who whacks me for no apparent reason or rather slaps me for noo reason. I dun cry but yeah it hurts awfully alot. I dun show it out bt jus smile my way thru. Im not saying that im a sensitive person.. oooh no one can touch me. But wadeva anyone do, pls think if it hurts the other party. Sometimes it hurts(emotionally and physically) but sometimes it doesnt(physically).. I knw, cos i bite and pinch Rio alot of times and i knw she hates it. I knw she feels the pain. In fact, she got soo pissed once, tt she told me if i did tt one more time, she swore that she wld slap me. That hurt me alot and then i realized wad i was doing was wrong and stopped doing it.. U see, im not an emo person or wad.. It jus soo happens. My boy also pinches me alot, and it hurts. He finds pleasure in doing it.. i feel the pain. When the pain gets too much, i tear. Im not a cry baby!! Its just soo fking hurts! He knows this matter and he doesn care bt yeah i just cant be angry with tt dimwit bf of mine for more than 10 mins or less!!

This is for everyone! Im not gonna say sorry or if i hinted u. Its for general purpose.. those whu can read this then im glad i got the msg thru.. thanks :)