|| Tuesday, October 03, 2006 ||

I sat near my window
saw the evening sun setting
The orange horizon made me wonder..

I wondered,
how would be like to fly
without wings
I wondered,
how would it be like
to be settled in the moon.
I kept wondering
and thought...
these were
IMPOSSIBLE!

I looked far and wondered...
will i ever get what i have been looking for?
will i be able to achieve it?
will i even be as close to it?

I hugged my knees
and felt lonely all of a sudden.

My best friends was flying away
without me.
Leaving me here alone to wonder
where my life would take me.

They all left me for a better life
they all left thinking
the other side was much
greener than this.

I pondered..
thought hard..

Life is nv goin to go as planned
there are bound to be
obstacles.
It has to be faced
without fear.
But fear was already hugging me.
refusing to let me go..

I tried to shake it off
only to realise tt
the fear has been with me eva since everyone left.

I thought,
he whu held me in his arms
will not let go of me
but only to realise the held me to
let go..
I fall..
too hard.
I tried to get up..

Eventually i got up
with serious bruises
and lots of pain.

I tot this was all a dream..
but these happened
just right before my eyes.

I dunno where im headed
when i felt a twinge of hatred

I wanted to question GOD ,
I wanted to ask him why has he made plans
to make me happy
just to see me fall?

I looked up in the sky
and saw the rainy clouds..

Was GOD about to cry for me
or was it suppose to be tears of joy?

I wondered...
and kept wondering...
and am still wondering..

-Ima-